I Want to Tell You

I want to tell you how I feel about you. I want to tell you about all the weekends I spent looking for you, looking at you. And about all the weekdays when I looked forward to those weekends. I want you to know how much I aspired to do well not just because I was seeking validation but mostly because I believed it was the only way you’d notice me. You made me want to become better. I want to tell you how beautiful I think you are. You’re smart and you’re kind and you’re this truly amazing person, and knowing I’ll never deserve you breaks my heart. I want to let you know that I’ve felt this way since day one. Although at that time, and for a few weeks more, I kept on denying what I felt. I want to say I miss you and those four months despite not having much to miss. I want to touch you, to hold you, to look into those eyes so bad that it feels like my chest is going to cave in. I want to let you know how much I want this feeling to go away, how hard I prayed and tried to let go. I want to tell you all this and I’m dying to hear what you’d say. I want to tell you how I feel about you, but I know I’m not going to.

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Sweet Child

I never thought I’d ever love a cat until you came. (You as in all of you, but you’re the one who counts the most.) And I’d never love another cat as much as I have loved you. You have a special place in my heart which nobody else could fill. I will always long for you and I will always love you, my sweet child.

Traslacion 2018

“Huwag panghinaan ng loob dahil merong nakikipaglakbay sa atin – si Hesus, kasama natin sa mga traslacion ng ating buhay.”
– Manila Archbishop Luis Antonio Cardinal Tagle

Through the highest mountains, darkest valleys, and even through stormy seas, the Lord is going to be there with us every step of the way. Feel His presence, hear Him calling especially when the troubles of the world seem to drown His voice out. Be still and know that God is here. Viva Señor Jesus Nazareno!

2018

2018 is the year of rebirth, the year the phoenix rises from the ashes.


“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes, a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.”

― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

Five Years on WordPress

I received a notification reminding me that today is my fifth year anniversary. When I did some checking both on Twitter and on this platform, I noticed some things. First, I am not sure when it is exactly that I started my personal blog. On Twitter, I’ve tweeted about my anniversary on both November 12th and 14th on two different years. And this 2017, I was notified today which is November 13th. Moreover, I only have two anniversary posts here on WordPress. One was when I celebrated my first anniversary, and, according to my post, I was ecstatic about it. The only remaining one (until today) caught me at a rather difficult time but I was thankful to have this despite everything (and I still am, of course). Well, today I’m in the middle of both. My life is far from perfect but I’m feeling hopeful. It’s both amazing and terrifying thinking about what an entire year holds. But here we are and there’s more to come. Cheers!